Friday, December 28, 2007

lazy lazy lazy!

I've learnt that LAZY is spelt "K-E-V-I-N". You can simply see that from the frequency of my posts, by looking at my attendance for school and work and the number of hours i sleep and what i do when i'm bored(like instead of finding something productive to do like writing a song, reading a book, reading the papers or blogging, i choose to stare at the screen of my laptop hoping for some form of entertainment to just pop up, SIGH).

SO HERE I AM BLOGGING AGAIN! Hurhur. I'm damn happy that my school reopens in a week and then I have a mere 4-week semester before i finally graduate! And then it'll just be work till I get into what every guy dreams to be in - army. But ohwell, I kinda look forward to it for some strange and unknown reason.

Anyway, a friend of mine said this and I found it to be quite interesting and worth a thought. She claims that she'd rather not know than to know and be hurt and in other words, to be deluded or ignorant. Buddha's infamous quote: "What you don't know, you don't need to know" Wah it'll be damn power if i could live like that la. HAHA. But I really don't know which is better? You see, i definitely belong to the category of people who want to know every damn thing, even knowing every damn thing causes hurt. The very fact that you want to know more(and actually get to know more) means that there is a higher probability for you to get hurt. But is it really better to be deluded/ignorant so that you live life with the minimal knowledge of the things of this world and the things which affect you or simply, living life as simple as possible? I've always had a damn problem called "kevin's self-stressing syndrome" and I've always tried to curb that and even though it seems to be getting better, I really want to be MUCH-LESS-STRESSED and enjoy life as it is!

The following is a classic example of a case of Kevin's Self-Stressing Syndrome:

1am: Kevin lies down on his bed and TRIES to sleep.

130am: Kevin realizes he's hungry but that calling macdonalds would cost money and will take at least 45mins and that means he wouldn't get to sleep in the next hour when he needs to since he's gotta get up at 630am. And so, Kevin ignores his hunger and TRIES to sleep, again.

2am: Kevin gets pissed because just as he's falling asleep, his sister comes home and makes a hell lot of noise making supper.

230am: Kevin gets REALLY pissed because now he can't sleep and is very hungry and so he gets even more irritated because he doesn't know if he should force himself to sleep since he barely has 4hours of sleep left or if he should call macdonalds and get rid of the goddamn hunger once and for all and have only less than 3hours of sleep.

3am: Kevin opted for the sleep-and-ignore-hunger option at 230am but it obviously failed and so now he's REALLY PISSED and calls macdonalds.

3-4am: GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUMBLE SWEAR SWEAR SWEAR.

4am: Eat and finally....SLEEP(after trying for the last 3 hours).

FUCKING CRAZY RIGHT? I KNOW!

Okay, I'm getting really groggy now and i think it's time for bed(don't worry, i'll ensure i have a full stomach before attempting the great feat of sleeping).

It's so fast that 2007 is coming to an end and it's gonna be 2008!

I'll do my goals and resolutions another day when my mind's more active.

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!! : ))






Posted by kevin. at 12:28 am