All I've Got

accurate personalily test!

2008-01-09T00:45:00.000+08:00

TRY THIS!

My Existing Situation:

Needs, and insists on having, a close and understanding relationship, or at least some method of satisfying a compulsion to feel identified.

My Stress Sources:

Has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates him and inhibits his readiness to give himself freely. While he wants to surrender and let himself go, he regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, he feels, will lift him above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.

My Restrained Characteristics:

Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship.

Distressed by the obstacles with which he is faced and is no mood for any form of activity or for further demands on him. Needs peace and quiet, and the avoidance of anything which might distress him further.

My Actual Problem:

Needs to be valued and respected as an exceptional individual, in order to increase his self-esteem and his feeling of personal worth. Resists mediocrity and sets himself high standards.

COOOOOOOOOL. Everything seems extremely accurate except for that one line:"Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship."
Hurhur, try it!

ACKMED

2008-01-06T03:17:00.001+08:00

THIS IS DAMN FUNNY LA.

lazy lazy lazy!

2007-12-28T00:28:00.000+08:00

I've learnt that LAZY is spelt "K-E-V-I-N". You can simply see that from the frequency of my posts, by looking at my attendance for school and work and the number of hours i sleep and what i do when i'm bored(like instead of finding something productive to do like writing a song, reading a book, reading the papers or blogging, i choose to stare at the screen of my laptop hoping for some form of entertainment to just pop up, SIGH).

SO HERE I AM BLOGGING AGAIN! Hurhur. I'm damn happy that my school reopens in a week and then I have a mere 4-week semester before i finally graduate! And then it'll just be work till I get into what every guy dreams to be in - army. But ohwell, I kinda look forward to it for some strange and unknown reason.

Anyway, a friend of mine said this and I found it to be quite interesting and worth a thought. She claims that she'd rather not know than to know and be hurt and in other words, to be deluded or ignorant. Buddha's infamous quote: "What you don't know, you don't need to know" Wah it'll be damn power if i could live like that la. HAHA. But I really don't know which is better? You see, i definitely belong to the category of people who want to know every damn thing, even knowing every damn thing causes hurt. The very fact that you want to know more(and actually get to know more) means that there is a higher probability for you to get hurt. But is it really better to be deluded/ignorant so that you live life with the minimal knowledge of the things of this world and the things which affect you or simply, living life as simple as possible? I've always had a damn problem called "kevin's self-stressing syndrome" and I've always tried to curb that and even though it seems to be getting better, I really want to be MUCH-LESS-STRESSED and enjoy life as it is!

The following is a classic example of a case of Kevin's Self-Stressing Syndrome:

1am: Kevin lies down on his bed and TRIES to sleep.

130am: Kevin realizes he's hungry but that calling macdonalds would cost money and will take at least 45mins and that means he wouldn't get to sleep in the next hour when he needs to since he's gotta get up at 630am. And so, Kevin ignores his hunger and TRIES to sleep, again.

2am: Kevin gets pissed because just as he's falling asleep, his sister comes home and makes a hell lot of noise making supper.

230am: Kevin gets REALLY pissed because now he can't sleep and is very hungry and so he gets even more irritated because he doesn't know if he should force himself to sleep since he barely has 4hours of sleep left or if he should call macdonalds and get rid of the goddamn hunger once and for all and have only less than 3hours of sleep.

3am: Kevin opted for the sleep-and-ignore-hunger option at 230am but it obviously failed and so now he's REALLY PISSED and calls macdonalds.

3-4am: GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUMBLE SWEAR SWEAR SWEAR.

4am: Eat and finally....SLEEP(after trying for the last 3 hours).

FUCKING CRAZY RIGHT? I KNOW!

Okay, I'm getting really groggy now and i think it's time for bed(don't worry, i'll ensure i have a full stomach before attempting the great feat of sleeping).

It's so fast that 2007 is coming to an end and it's gonna be 2008!

I'll do my goals and resolutions another day when my mind's more active.

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!! : ))

hello

2007-09-08T02:33:00.000+08:00

OMG. I can't believe how lazy I've been. I was so excited and eager to post my response to a pretty interesting question my lecturer gave a couple of weeks back but I never found e time or energy to do it and now it's not so exciting anymore. :( but oh well, I shall just copy and paste it below since I'm already in blogger.

Question: "We will think and talk like the person we listen to the most"-Do you think this is true? Give examples.

Response: We are all the person we are because of those around us. We allow ourselves to be influenced and that can take place anywhere - at home, in school, at work, among our friends, among our loved ones, etc. Nothing much of who we are is actually "original" because almost everything that makes the person we are are learnt and caught during the course of our lives.

I would say that we are like "lego". We pick the different colours and shapes to build the very "lego structure" that the world recognizes us as. The way we talk and think can be moulded to the extent of which we allow it to. Therefore, the world works in such a way where everyone learns from everyone else but the underlying difference which marks us the unique way we are is our maturity, creativity and discipline. I sound like I'm holding a seminar but I think what I say makes sense!(haha). We are all creative and want to be that "somebody" we've always dreamt ourselves to be. Above that lies maturity where we are able to discern the best for ourselves and that includes the way we conduct our lives and what we want to achieve and what we want to do in life. Then comes the crucial factor that we all struggle with - discipline. Whether we can be who we've dreamt ourselves to be depends largely on this. I believe that who we allow ourselves to listen to most is nothing but a matter of choice and since we've made that choice to allow that individual to step into the innermost circle of our lives where he/she is tagged as the person we "listen to most", we have already subjected ourselves to be heavily influenced by that him or her in our thoughts and the way we speak.

A simple example would be to look at any group of friends out there in the streets and if they are a really close bunch, you would notice that their mannerisms, behaviour, speech and the things they enjoy doing would be very much alike, e.g. Either all or none will smoke.

END OF RESPONSE

YAY! Finally got my results and I can't wait to graduate! one last semester! WOOHOO. anw, very random but those who know what i'm talking about will probably understand. THE STANDARDS ARE DROPPING! HAHAHA.

*kevin thanks God, the Almighty that he was led to make e right choice*

ironic isn't it?

2007-08-10T02:05:00.000+08:00

so now, 8months into the year and as always, invaluable lessons have been learnt, in the hardest way possible.

I truly believe in this - put any 2 people(preferably of e opposite sex) from any part of the world together(together as in in a form of a relationship, not just physically, duh.), and IF THEY WANT TO, it will work. Here comes the problem, the root of all problems which lead to the many broken relationships and marriages we witness - do both REALLY want it to work? so much so that they will compromise, sacrifice, tolerate, change, etc? Well, because I truly believe that if they can do all that, they WILL work.

Compatibility to me is bullshit. How many times have we heard this - "oh we just can't get along, we're so different!". Is that a good excuse to break up? Or rather, is that REALLY the PROBLEM? Well let's look at the other extreme - "oh man, i definitely don't want to date someone who's exactly like me, it'll be so boring!" My point is that no matter how similar or different you guys can be, you guys can make it work IF both of you want to.

Most arranged marriages have worked simply because both HAD to live with each other and in that, learnt how to love each other and get along even when they couldn't. Yes, that's an extreme example because in this age, we are given the liberty to choose our partners but my point is that using the "compatibility" issue as an excuse for a breakup is absolute trash to me because the truth is that you guys don't love each other enough to want it to work because there simply would be too many obstacles to tackle and changes to make. My take? - no such a thing as "we are not meant to be", it is rather "we don't want to be".

The most common reason for quarrels/arguments between partners is their differences. Be it differences in views, differences in the way they work, differences in the way they feel or differences in the way they think. And so the question remains, the one question which I've been trying very hard to answer - why quarrel when you can both have a constructive argument, debate or discussion? Why quarrel when it will cause so much stress, hurt, anger, disappointment and when it will tire both of you out? Why do it when you guys know you shouldn't?

Because you guys take each other for granted.

Notice that one will get angry more easily at her boyfriend/husband than at a colleague or a friend? Similarly, one will get hurt much faster and easier by his girlfriend/wife than by his buddy or boss. This is just the way it is. When we willingly commit ourselves to another person, we are opening up our hearts and minds to each other in a way where nobody else on planet earth can ever dream of experiencing. Isn't that the whole point of being "together"? You guys share a dream, share the love, share the joy, share the sorrow, share every possible thing/aspect/feeling that you can. I believe it takes a certain level of love in the relationship coupled with a certain degree of wanting the relationship to work for both to argue but yet love each other. But what I feel makes a mature person is when they choose to take the positive when it is seemingly easier to opt for the negative. Lost?

Example 1: It's Friday night and Jerome has made plans with Jean to meet for supper after his nightshift and was eagerly looking forward to it. The plan was to meet at 11pm but before that could materialize, Jerome received an sms from Jean that she's made a sudden change of mind and won't be meeting him because she feels it's better that she meets her mother who's spending the night alone.

Now Jerome has two obvious ways in which he can react:

1. "WHY ON EARTH ARE YOU PLAYING ME OUT? WOULDN'T I BE SPENDING THE NIGHT ALONE THEN? IS YOUR MOM MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME?"

2. "Darling, is everything okay? Your mom's alright ya?", and then talk things out in a mature, calm and loving manner.

Let's take this example but we'll do a switch in characters and instead of Jerome and Jane who are a couple, we'll have Shawn and David who are buddies.

My guess to David's reply to Shawn should Shawn play him out at such a last minute notice:

David: "What the fuck? Why couldn't you fucking tell me earlier so at least I wouldn't have to spend my friday night going home? You know how much I hate it as it's such a waste to my weekend"

Well, my point is that this shouldn't be the way to react to your partner because he/she surely means more than a homealone night right?

Or let's say David and Shawn are just mere friends who got to know one another recently, my bet would be that David would react in the most cordial way possible because he's not taking anything for granted and he definitely has no right to.

So why would you want to treat your partner more harshly and unlovingly than how mere friends or even acquaintances would treat each other?

Example 2: Sam had a rough day in school and everything that could possibly go wrong, went wrong. After that horrid day at school, he met Michelle, but with a really black and unpleasant face.

Michelle also has two obvious choices:

1. Put on a black face and say "If your face is so black, I'd rather you not meet me."

2. "Oh my dear, you don't look so good. Had a rough day? What happened darling?", and proceed to helping him make his day better.

Okay I know this is a really naggy and lengthy post but I just want to drive my point across.

We shouldn't react faster to anger than we should to patience. We should get upset without first being understanding. We should be more tolerant instead of throwing our tantrums so easily because we take each other for granted that he/she will have to stick it through with us even in our ugliest state.

The truth is that our partners are the dearest to us and therefore, have the ability to hurt us the most or to create our happiest moments. Don't be too quick to anger, to easily upset, too easily hurt, too easily disappointed, too intolerant, too impatient. They are afterall, the ones who mean most to you and I think the least we can do is to show them the best of us during the worst of them. That way, every problem is resolved in a quick, smart and loving way!

Every time we're given a choice, we can choose the positive or the negative. It might seem easier to go with the negative but it really never is. The ability to see beyond the present circumstance and into the future is one rare trait.

And in that few seconds of decision-making marks the great difference between one who is MATURE and one who just isn't.

Am I making sense?

2007-07-19T11:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPINESS is when...

1. Debbie is happy!

2. I SAVE(S-A-V-E, not just earn. hurhur) lotsa money!

3. I'm stressfree(yes, its very idealistic though I've once heard that tired people change the world. hmmmm.)

4. I wake up fresh.

5. I get the chance to eat a lot.

6. I complete my bloody FYP, PP and CE.

7. WE go lan and when HE starts swearing his mouth off as HE is getting trashed and I just sit there laughing.

8. I shop and buy lots.

9. When I score in my UTs.

10. When she repeats after me "LOVELOVE, HARROW HARROW".

oh yes, very random but I'm forcing myself to think of the happy things while having a bloody stressed week at school and work. Oh well, at least I'm making good use of my time and scoring well, earning money and spending much good, fun and happy times with her!
I'm always thinking and worrying too much and I find it terribly hard to just....relax. There are those who take life easily and as it comes and I am jealous because I'm still trying very hard, everyday to being one step less anal, more controlled, less angry, more disciplined and HAPPY!

Well, we all have 24hours everyday and I choose to allocate 3 major entities to that given time - DEBBIE, SCHOOL, WORK.

I THINK I WILL BE VERY PROUD OF MYSELF IF I CAN STRIKE A PERFECT BALANCE IN THOSE 3. ahhh but yes, I'm doing not too bad.

okay, one happy note before I trod off to work as uh huh, I'm in SCHOOL - I've had e best results I've ever gotten in my 3 years in poly! A, A, B+, B!

okay, goodbye world and I'll catch you soon, I hope.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2007-06-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

WORTH THE TRY

You were never there to start with...
I could never ask for more..
For you've given me all...
One thing I...
Cannot understand...
Why you chose me, when we couldn't blend...

From the start I knew we would…
Make it through…
Never could I imagine…
That this was for real…
I’ve always wanted to hear you say…
I love you…
But now that it comes so often…
I just want to say…

Thank you…
For your love and care…
When my mood got nasty…
You saw beyond that…
Thank you…
For sticking it through with me…
Debbie…
I love you…

Remember how I told you we were…
Worth a try…
Because deep down inside…
I knew we were right…
Through the good and bad times we…
Came out fine...
No better time to say this…
So here goes…

2007-06-05T21:57:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA. wah lao this is really mean but it's damnnnn funny la.

AMAZING...

2007-05-22T11:28:00.000+08:00

To say the least, there are very few people on this globe who are able to tolerate me and the shit I'm capable of.

One of which is the one and only NG SU-WEI DEBBIE.

She's the one who never fails to make me wanna kick myself because of the silly things I do/say/think. We've always agreed that it seems that she's the guy and I'm the girl because of my endless worries, complaints and bitching.

It's really funny that...
When most couples have the girl talking more than the guy, I talk more than her.
When most couples have the girl complaining of the guy not spending enough time with her, she complains that we spend too much.
When most couples have the girl worry, complain and get paranoid about e seemingly stupidest things(or nothing at all), the inverse is true in us.
When most couples have the guy wilder than the girl, she's wilder than me. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Everyone has their weaknesses and some of the major ones of mine just happen to be really stupid, irritating and arguably, insane. It's amazing how she not only tolerates them (let's not list the details huh), but also encourages me and lifts me out of those stupid rifts I have with myself.

She's ever so forgiving, loving and tactful that it almost always makes me feel so silly!

There really is nobody else who would give so much, put up with so much shit, and give even more.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

I LOVE YOU DEB!

religion?

2007-04-23T11:04:00.000+08:00

I just realized that the statistics of my blog is quite scary. There are quite a lot of visitors and even a number of regulars and I'm so sorry that you're going to read about me and my personal argument about e existence of a "god".

The thoughts linger and resurface every time I'm put in a situation where I really wonder if this loving, sacrificial and righteous God exists. It's just way too convenient to give glory to God for every good thing which happens and blame e devil for every bad. When you fail, someone will be there to tell you that it is alright because what cannot kill you will only make you stronger. When an unfortunate and uncontrollable event occurs, e.g. the Tsunami, they say that God is in control of things, He is sovereign and He has reasons and thoughts above ours so even when such a tragedy happens, be sure to trust in Him because it only happened as He allowed it to and He'll definitely have His reasons for it. But I highly doubt the families of these tens of thousands who died will be so willing to accept that "truth" about God. What they would say is that if a god exists and if this god is good and loving, how could he possibly allow so many thousands of innocent lives to be lost just by a sweep of currents initiated by what they so call, a "devil". It's just too easy to give all glory to God for the good things and blame everything else on e devil.

What about stories in the Old Testament of the Bible when God killed thousands, plagued a country and cursed nations?

When I fail in a business venture, I'd be told not to give up but to try again and start afresh because everything happens for a reason and if I don't call it quits this time, I'll come back stronger because God is always w me and w Him, all things are possible. That sounds really encouraging but I think that those theories do apply to non-Christians as well. It IS true that what fails to kill you will cause you to become stronger and that you should never give up on yr dreams in life. And I truly believe that even a non-Christian who doesn't have a "god" on his side can still succeed on his subsequent attempts. On the contrary, that Christian might try the second time and STILL FAIL and he'll be fed w e same counsel yet again and try the third. How then, does the principles and miracles of "god" apply?

Everything in the Bible is encouraging, educational, motivational and positive and can be read by any man in the world. If that man takes heed and accepts those principles and teachings found in that book, he'll be encouraged, educated, motivated and be a more optimistic person without even being a Christian, attending a Christian organization or having any relationship w a fellow Christian.

The truth's that there's no concrete proof to the Christian beliefs because if there is, anyone who devotes himself/herself to any other religion or even atheists(who happen to top the lists in the richest/most successful people in the world) would be clearly deemed as absurd.

Okay and having said all that, I promise to do my best to update something less argumentative/borderline antagonistic in future. Maybe I'll start blogging about e events in my everyday life like what I ate for my 3 meals, how school was, what I did and where I went throughout e day and what time I slept. HAHA.

Marjoe Gortner Exposes Fake Preachers

2007-04-12T17:50:00.001+08:00

this sounds and looks familiar...HAHAHA

god?

2007-04-08T03:00:00.000+08:00

is there really a god out there?
and no, i'm not going atheist here but here's my take.
I do think that there's a god out there but my doubts lie in the very thing Christians believe firmly in - the bible.

is everything in the bible true? is there no exaggeration at all and could it all come down to e power and wonders of the human mind?

I'd say that most Christians around the globe believe in healing and that god is here to provide it. Of course there are prerequisites to you attaining it and of which, the most common of all would probably be faith. some may argue that faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. is that really faith or could it be just luck? you'd say that faith is not needed when god can be identified with by the 5 human senses and that it is precisely because it doesn't work this way that we need faith. well then, how would you know that this "faith" you're believing in or that you have might not just be a play in your mind? what do i mean by that?

Most of the Christians out there would have experienced a first-hand account of a miracle healing in a crusade or a church service or at the least, seen it or heard of it somewhere. Personally, i've seen over a hundred of different cases of healing. Big, small, jaw-dropping, heart-moving, you get e idea. But what we don't know is whether that IS healing or just a play of the mind. Researchers say that the average human uses only a mere 10% of his potential brain capacity. Knowing that, I'd not dare imagine what it would be like to be using a complete 100% of the mind. But let's not go into that. What i'm trying to say is that the messages you receive, the words from the preacher's mouth, the experiences you've heard of might just be enough to stimulate that mind to work a little harder into achieving the usage of more potential brain capacity. Seeing a lame man stand up from his wheelchair to walk might be a mind-blowing sight because it goes beyond what the mind calls "logical" into the seemingly "impossible/supernatural". But is this really healing or is it the work of the mind after it's been stimulated into believing that "standing up from the wheelchair to walk" IS possible. What i've NEVER seen is the medical EVIDENCE to show that the patient has RECOVERED but what i've always heard is what they always want us to hear and that it takes FAITH to SUSTAIN the healing. What about cancer patients who've been "healed" but die a couple of weeks later? I don't think we actually will ever get to hear of them. and e truth is, we'll never know.

Well, there's actually a little personal experience of mine about the power of the mind.
I've ever been made a "steelrod" simply by having my mind stimulated by a motivational speaker. What happened was that there were 2 chairs approximately 1metre or so apart. On one chair lay my head and the other had my legs on it. The rest of my body was supported by the many hands of the students beside me. My eyes were closed. The speaker began to speak words like "strength is going through your body and you will soon be as solid as a steelrod" and constantly reminded me to keep my eyes closed. Before long, I felt a slight weight upon my stomach which lasted about 30 seconds. Soon after that, I felt another weight, this time heavier, on my stomach again and it also lasted about half a minute. And then i was told to open my eyes. I looked up to see the eyes of my fellow schoolmates wide open and the shock on their faces. I was told that the students stopped supporting my back but my body laid straight like a "steelrod" with just my head and legs on the chairs. And after more words spoken to me by the man, i had him sitting on my stomach WITHOUT SUPPORT BELOW MY BACK. The final shock came when a classmate of mine (weighing about 60KG) stood on my stomach and in all of that, my body didn't move a single inch. That to me, IS the power the mind possesses when it is stimulated.

Could this all be the work of our powerful mind that is largely stimulated by our belief in the phenomenon of a god?

Everything we believe as a "miracle" or "work of God" could very well just be luck or a play of our minds. Have you ever experienced or encountered a miracle which is objectively tangible?

Having shared my views on this, I do hope that none of you get offended and you have my apologies if you are. This is my take on this topic and I'd very much like to hear yours. :)

2007-04-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

Debbie : "I need you to be stronger than me, to be there when i'm hurt"

Kevin : "You bet i will :)"

memoirs of a trolley-ed foot.

2007-04-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

SIGH.

it was 430pm. after putting on e pink tie and re-checking my uniform to ensure neatness, i strolled out of e toilet to e office for e usual clock-in.

as i walked on e beautifully carpeted floor of e world's number one airport, i reached into my pocket for my cellphone to text Debbie. so there i was taking e longest time ever to reach e office so i could type that sms and before i could react, i found myself lying on e floor. my immediate thought - "shit, i fell. so fucking paiseh! quickly get up!" i turned back to see an indian delivery man who was pushing his over-stacked trolley filled w cartons of mineral water hurrying up to me and saying "sorry sorry brother". i got pissed and retorted, "relax la brother. are you fucking blind or what?" and that's when i realized that my shoe came off and it was completely bent and that made things worse cuz they were 2weeks old! i realized e trolley trapped my trailing foot and i don't wanna imagine e damage it inflicted when i bent it so i could take a step forward. nevermind that, i decided to get up so i could disappear from that embarrassing moment. but that was to no avail. i realized i couldn't move my foot anymore and they felt both numb and painful at e same time. i exclaimed after i tried to move it and e indian man told me "slowly slowly brother" while giving me a hand". by then, e security were already looking over and telling me not to move but to wait for a wheelchair and employees from e shops around obviously kaypoh-ed since this was a sight out of their ordinary and often boring routine. and so i waited, and waited, and waited, and decided that since i couldn't move my leg, i could still use my hands. so i canceled e draft of that sms and decided to call her instead. she picked up, heard what happened and told me that she'd request for urgent leave so she could rush down from work. i was relieved to say e least.

e wheelchair came, i got carried up onto it and we went on a journey to the Raffles Medical Centre. it didn't help that i had 2 not-very-experienced security members who had to ask e Information Counter for directions to e clinic! SIGH.

so i reached e clinic and had nothing positive done to my poor foot except for e precious, much-encouraging words from e doctor who said that it's either a fracture or a torn tendon or ligament. YAY. this part of my life, i call "HAPPYNESS". HAHA. ANYWAYYYY, i got some cream applied on it before taking e referral letter to Tan Tock Seng Hospital for an x-ray and not to mention, PAYMENT FOR THE STUPID TREATMENT. (i don't wanna reveal e amount but you can try giving it a smart guess since it's RAFFLES MEDICAL CENTRE. SIGH).

okokokok. i think i'm damn draggy and wordy so let's do this fast. so debbie came and we took a cab to TTSH. upon arrival, i just had to be asked stupid questions by nurses and often told to "please take a seat" before i finally took 2 x-ray shots. PLEASE TAKE A SEAT. like THANK YOU SO MUCH but i'm already on a goddamn wheelchair?! - ___________ -

results of e x-ray showed that there was a black line on one sheet which they suspect might be a hairline fracture of a bloodclot because of e torn tissue. and they cannot confirm it but instead, sent it to e bone specialist because e subsequent xray shot from a different angle didn't have that black line. so they cast up my leg, taught me how to use crutches and told me to come back for a checkup on wednesday.

so here's presenting a NEEDY, HOPPING, SAD, ANGRY and BROKEN Kevin. HAHA.

how very scary it is to know that accidents happen at split seconds that you might only come to realize you've been involved in one AFTER it actually happens. SCARY. to think i didn't even react before i fell and thought i could still stand up (that's why i screamed at that idiot) kind of makes it funny.
and e most important revelation i had - my life took a TURN just because of a careless trolley pusher who decided to take e lazy way out by stacking so many cartons till he couldn't see past them. now i'm just hoping my bosses can find out e necessary information from e security since 4 of them were present and i'll be able to claim insurance for e bleedy medical bills.

so thank you darling for rushing down to e airport, for staying w me cuz you didn't want me to be alone though that almost caused you to miss yr Phantom Of The Opera show, for accompanying me home after e show, for spending e whole saturday lazing at my home because there's nothing much we can do w a limping boyfriend, for e positivity and faith you have in us (i know this may seem random to e public. my apologies. HAHA), for your motherly care and concern and for your LOVE!

it would have been so different if you weren't around. you made it much easier to go through and i'm absolutely grateful for YOU!

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!

DISCLAIMER: IF YOU HAVE YOUR GOOSEBUMPS UP BECAUSE OF THE MUSH IN THIS WRITE-UP, I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS FAR.
(yes, i know this disclaimer should be placed at e top). HAHAHA.

ohhh and moral of e story?

If you want to be lazy and enjoy being served, go break yr foot.

the fragility strangles.

2007-03-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

it's extremely scary how there isn't any absolute form of security for relationships at all. he can be your best friend today and because of a fight tomorrow, become dispensable. she can be your girlfriend today but choose to make a decision that will change both your lives tomorrow. even siblings can fall out and not talk for years. the fragility of relationships is probably the scariest fact of life but yet we all choose to commit to some to seek that bit of love, that bit of security, that bit of fun, that bit of assurance, that bit of acceptance.

what i want may not be what you want. what i like may not be what you like. what i need may not be what you need. what i'm like may not be what you're like. but despite all these contrasting differences, we've chosen to stay committed because of love, dependence and the hope for a brighter, much brighter future.
and for that, i'm thankful.
it's amazing how different we are but how much we are prepared to put up with, just for each other.
it's interesting how you choose to run while i choose to confront; how you choose to repress while i choose to express; how you rarely get angry while it doesn't take much to push that red button of mine; how you're optimistic while i'm logical, therefore a little more realistic; how you need deliberate breaks while i need your company all the time; that you judge from tone while i judge from words; i think e list could go on a little longer but you get my point.

but hey! i think we've done pretty well so far! those little talks, undesirable confrontations and not-very-nice arguments have brought us to know one another better, make the necessary correction and offered us the chance to make those promises i'm confident we will keep.

remember i once said that this is worth e try?
i think we're proving that right.
i love you.

2007-03-05T01:34:00.001+08:00

You Are An ESTJ

The Guardian

You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.
Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.
You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.
Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done!

You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

What's Your Personality Type?

hmmmmmm.

2007-02-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

if Adam and Eve were the first and only human beings created by God out of nothing, is it then right to say that we're all products of incest?

OMG

2007-02-20T17:43:00.000+08:00

a tribute to the KOO FAMILY.

2007-02-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

not to boast but i am simply thankful for this family i have. the father, the mother and the sister. one which i will definitely follow after and yearn to have when my turn comes. hurhur.

how could anybody ask for more?

we're not perfect but we're sure and secure about the love we share for each other. no need for gifts, no need for a lot of quality time, don't even really need the verbal expressions of love.
there is mutual understanding and respect and that's one of, if not the most important ingredient in building a happy family!

i feel that it is unnecessary and may even backfire to be uptight and anal about your 20yearold child's whereabouts and whom he/she's with, what he/she's doing and what time he/she's coming home. you may choose to argue that it's only natural for a parent to worry but i assure you there's no need for 20missed calls when you're sure he/she will be back in one piece and all you really care about is your security as the position of a parent and thus want to restrict and manipulate your child's choices. you may also want to argue that a parent SHOULD be "on top of things" when it comes to their 20yearold child(who is now a young adult) but can i say that THAT may be the EXACT CAUSE of their rebellion? this is my take on parenting(i'm speaking as though i'm a father already but ANYWAY) - freedom is essential. mutual understanding and respect is vital. love tops the list. OMG. i can't believe i'm writing this. but YES, we all lead our own lives and have our own views and preferences. not everything can be under your control and that's just life. If even God gave us a freewill, why try to take that away from our children? He gave us the knowledge of good and evil (okay, i mean adam took it by biting that stupid apple) and then a freewill to decide on which to take. so if you're a Christian, that's your memory verse for the week! HAHA. (I STILL CANNOT BELIEVE I'M WRITING THIS!) even God does not manipulate us, so please...it's only smart that we don't either.

THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A TRIBUTE. SO HERE IT GOES...

to daddy koo, mummy koo and sister koo,
thank you for all of your understanding and respect on my who, what and where decisions.
thank you for accepting me as i am. (please note that this is NOT a given in case you're thinking i'm cliche)
thank you for knowing my needs and how i work and living with them (sometimes, and only sometimes BEARING with them. heh)
thank you for the support.
thank you for believing in me and trusting me as your son/brother.
thank you for not making noise when i don't come home or come home at sunrise (and i know you do that because you trust and not that you don't care. :) ) when i think any other overly-protective/borderline manipulative parent would.
thank you for the other many countless loving things you guys have done for the past 20 years while living with this brat.
and lastly,
thank you for accepting and loving her.

:)

:)

2007-02-14T20:49:00.000+08:00

before i fall into deeeeeep sleeep, i just wanna say
THANK YOU for...(not in any order)

...sacrificing your precious sleep to accompany a brat to NSC.
...bearing with me while i whine and throw my tantrums about YOUKNOWWHAT.
...that musical box which plays our favourite tune!
...standing up for yourself and us during that phoneless and walletless period.
...trusting me(and my optimal solutions. HAHA)

okay. i think if i go on, i'll risk sounding cheesy, exaggerative, and some may say i'm WAYANG-ING.(I WONDER WHO.)
andddd................my nose is dropping off as i'm trying really hard to suck up everything that's leaking. okay i know that sounds gross but yes, i need my sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep NOW!

happy studying!
goodnight darling.
goodbye world.

no no no!

2007-02-13T18:36:00.000+08:00

no no no they're not true! i sound like i'm pleading for your kind understanding. ohh wait. i think i am! i really don't know what you guys have heard from the less-than-amusing phone calls you've received from godknowswho or from merely hearsay. BUT e point is....i might have been slandered against! HAHA.

no, i'm not accusing my buddy of being a gay.
no, i'm not harbouring a poor little girl as hostage in my room.
no, i did not impregnate anybody!
no, i'm not running away from e police!
and NO to whatever other slandering piece of bullshit she tried convincing you about.

FUCK. i can't believe i have to justify myself when i've done nothing SHE can press charges against. this is really absurd.

and here's a big THANK YOU to TYL for your understanding. i hate and am embarrassed to have implicated you. but things are much better now i hope and yes, you've offered some sound advice which we'd try our very best to take.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!
(it finally means more than a fricking friendship day to me, HAHA).

i wonder...

2007-02-01T09:13:00.000+08:00

this might not be all that encouraging but i can't help but to believe it. does CHANGE really exist or is it just synonymous to an extreme case of RESTRAINT? and why do i think so? a highly debatable subject and i'm keen to hear your views on this.

it sounds common and right to say that people change over time, due to circumstances and because of the influence of the people around them. i wouldn't disagree with that but here's my take on it. after much thought, i'd say that a change in a person's life is nothing more than acts of restraint coupled with a new perspective. let's take for example a guy who WAS uncouth, promiscuous and smokes. sounds like a typical example of someone who doesn't have a very positive social influence. now let's say that person involves himself in a positive influence of friends or simply attends a highly motivational talk on ethics. what he sees now is the advantages of being refined, morally upright and living a smoke-free life. He realizes that more people are willing to accept him when he's refined. He understands his value and self-worth and decides not to indulge in casual sex because there's someone out there who means more than that to him. He also makes a firm decision to abstain from cigarettes because of the many health risks and the unreasonably high costs it incurs. so is this change or a simple case of restraint and of a different perspective to these issues? i'd say the latter. He now knows that he can abstain from these habits and still be happy(or even happier) and be more socially accepted and save on unnecessary costs and reduce health risks. this is gonna sound really doubtful or even borderline sinful but i'd say it anyway. In a case like this in church, you'd say that God changed him. i disagree. He just saw for himself the advantages and made an optimal solution out of it. YES it will hurt at e start and it'll be really difficult and uncomfortable but he knows his efforts are not in vain and for a much higher benefit. it's a decision HE made. It is restraint because he IS addicted to cigarettes and sex is pleasurable. But he chose to practise it(restrain) because of the new perspective he has come to know of and stands by. Nevertheless, the temptations will still be lurking around whether or not God is in the picture.

What's really discouraging him from going back to his past? is it really God or his will(restraint) and mind(perspective)?

and i love her because...

2007-01-27T02:44:00.000+08:00

she's GORGEOUS :)
she's sensible
she's sweet
she's smart
she's mature
she's accomodating
she's philanthropic
she's cute(and please realize by now that there're other meanings to that than the far-too-common "ugly but adorable")
she thinks..A LOT
she listens
she cares
she loves

alright i've done it! a post far more positive, meaningful and pleasant as compared to the previous angsty ones you guys wanted to stab me for. HAHA.

it's simply amazing how giving has become a delight. it's awesome that you made that OPTIMAL decision to try after much thought. it's heartening to know you want this to work and do not want any regret. it's flattering to know that though you find it a struggle to commit exclusively to someone, you gave me that privilege. it's fantastic to know that everything's been great and happier days await. it's encouraging to know that though those closest to you might be against this, you're willing to speak up, fight it out w them and have faith in us. it's extremely delightful to love you.

to Miss GORGEOUS DEBBIE, i'm still very much convinced by what my sis said. it may sound cheesy but yes i truly am overjoyed that we've found each other. one of the best parts of this is that we both took 19 friggin years of our lives to finally give ourselves a chance for a relationship because we just couldn't commit exclusively to someone we're not perfectly confident in and someone we couldn't trust that we love enough. awwwww. i think this sounds so sweet already. HAHA. it's nice to know that we both find relationships a case of simple things being made complicated. I'm really thankful that you are open to me when i know you prefer very much to be guarded. and and yes it's far better to know that you graduate in 2 weeks while i still have to drag those poor feet of mine every morning to woodlands for another year! oh and i love the fact that we're cynical because that way, we'd rather face the hard truth as to how very few actually do care and love us than to be deluded to think that everyone who merely claim that they love us really do. it's also good to know that we're skeptical because though the world may think we're negative and hard to be with, it goes to show that we do THINK deeper than simply choosing to take things at face value. i'm really really grateful that you're willing to fight it out w those dear to you(and with the men in blue. URGH) because you're confident in and want us to work.

i still find it rather fascinating and am still very much amazed by this whole episode(and i safely assume you understand what i mean by that.) but then again, maybe it's God-ordained? HAHA. hey! happier times lie ahead! for good times, and good times remember? :) I LOVE YOU!

bleahh

2007-01-25T13:45:00.000+08:00

can't see no comments! haven't got a saybox up yet! the blogskin's in need of a little tweaking! and i think it's high time i start posting something more positive than the ones you guys have been coming in to read and hating me for. HAHA.

you think it's true?

2007-01-13T17:04:00.000+08:00

hello everybody and you,

kevin being a wolf to the sheep? kevin slandering about the very organization and the people who belong to it when he's left? kevin looking these people up so he can "drag them down"? kevin the devil's accomplice? i'm sorry but i think it sounds ridiculous.

For one, i've got better things to do than the above mentioned. for another, i've left so why would i still wanna get myself involved in whatever goes on in it? If you leaders need to take desperate measures just cause i've spoken and met some of yr members(btw, yr members LOOKED ME UP, not the other way around) then i suggest you go reflect. your members trust me more than they trust you? your members being so easily shaken by kevin's words? your members being so deluded?

Believe me whether you want to or not. i'm not starting a cell group of my own and trying my utmost best to hold a recruitment drive to target your members. i have a life and i choose to live it OUT of this organization so plesae stop thinking i'm taking conscious effort to "stumble" your members. it's such a joke and i pity you. Remember the verse which goes "the truth shall set you free"? i guess it applies here as well. I know you want your membesr to be as naive as to take your words as a YES and AMEN but maybe not all are like how you want them to be?

This ain't an outburst but it's simply a channel for me to express my thoughts for all of you to see. Frankly, i left the organization and blocked most of you on MSN because i DO NOT WANT any of whatever's going on right now to happen. So if it makes YOU agitated and if it causes YOU trouble, the same will apply to me. I'm fine if YOU want to meet me or call me up or whatever, because i've nothing to hide but i'm not exactly interested in justifying my actions as well. If you think i'm e sinner and that i am "touching God's anointed" or i am messing around with God's people and being a stumbling block, then i hope at e end of our lives, i'll be down burning in hell looking up enviously at YOU enjoying your eternal life in heaven and regretting the choices which i made in my time on planet earth. you think that would happen? i don't know. maybe you do.

I just want to say that i'm not consciously causing trouble and having a good laugh when you're desperately trying to talk to every one of your members because i REALLY have better things to do and a person to love than that. you don't want all this and neither do i. So if all this is happening just cause of mere contact w kevin, there must be a reason above the superficial ones you tend to portray to your little deluded followers. you may hate me, i know. so to all of you out there. you guys think what yr leader(s) say is true and everything that i say is a slander and a lie? YOU THINK IT'S TRUE?

worth the try.

2007-01-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

it's worth the try babe, trust me, it's worth the try. look FORWARD. let what we want to work, work! i have faith, i hope you do, and we've got brighter and happier things to think of than the ever-lingering thoughts your mind plays with. forward forward forward! love ya!

2006-12-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls,
when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

to all of you out there

2006-10-31T11:52:00.000+08:00

hmm where shall i begin?
fine i'll just blabber off what comes to my mind. firstly, to those out there who know who you are. if you don't know the reasons why, would you please just stop assuming and telling everybody as though you know. it's okay that you're already blur, just don't act like you know when you don't know shit.
what is a church? as many would say, the PEOPLE. YOU GOT YOUR ANSWER! why commit to a bunch of people who will benefit me nothing? a few are CLASSIC, a handful are GENUINE, a lot are FAKE, most are DELUDED. by now, many of you would think that i'm saying all this cuz "kevin's already warped". "kevin's gone astray". "this is what a BACKSLIDER would say" "kevin's full of pride" hey look, WHATEVER. sorry to those of you who think so. i apologize because you are PERFECT, you are ALL-LOVING, you are RIGHTEOUS and GODLY, you are a LEADER and people add a "sister" or "brother" in front of your name. you know what? MOST ARE DELUDED.
If you are living what you preach, amen to you. if you REALLY have a purpose in what you're doing, truly love what you do and love the people (not because you'll get interrogated if you don't do it), living a happy life, managing every aspect of your life well, AMEN TO YOU. if you're not, maybe you wanna take a step back and THINK THINGS THROUGH before opening that big gap of yours. AND PLEASE STOP LIVING A DOUBLE LIFE. NO POINT IN IT.i honestly don't blame some because that's what their minds have been taught to think. you are taught to place CHURCH as the core of your life and everything around it is secondary. hey wait....shouldn't your LIFE be in the centre? oh of course you'll tell me - "no! we don't put church in the centre, we put God" oh please..... what's the DIFFERENCE? monday- offday. tuesday- leaders meeting. wednesday- bible study. - thursday-give bible study/meet members. friday- cellgroup. saturday- service. sunday - prayer meeting or meet members. ISN'T THIS CHURCH? ohhh wait...you're gonna say "this is your choice. no one forced you to do it. this is responsibility you want to take up." hmmmm. what IF you don't attend a prayer meeting? - "oh that member is not committed. oh that member is weak. oh that member is not potential" SOUNDS FAMILIAR? at the end of the day, CHURCH = GOD. GOD = CHURCH. try this test. - take a step back from where you are (and by this i mean i don't give a damn even if you lead a subzone). ARE YOU DOING WELL IN ALL THE OTHER AREAS? you guys are great at saying this member is NDW, that member is UNCOMMITTED. heyhey. what bout YOU? how's your studies? how's your work? how's your family? how's your finances? how's your relationships with friends/colleagues? how's YOU- the real YOU. having enough time for yourself and for your own leisure? if you can say "GREAT" or "DOING FINE" for all of the above, you are truly what you preach. if you are not, then please think twice before you wanna start thinking you're better off than those who "do not have God"
another thing i wanna add to you bootlickers out there (e worst thing is if you don't know that you're one). the world calls you a bootlicker or someone who "por" when you are over-zealous at trying to please your superior(s) to gain promotion. they call you that when you are over-initiative. the church calls you an "armourbearer" when you over-initiate or when you stand up for your leaders. they say that you truly have a love and heart for your leaders when you are over-zealous to help, serve, do favours, organize events, preach etc. HEY LET'S DO A SIMPLE COMPARISON. aren't they the exact same things? SAME DIFFERENCE. i won't name names, but bootlickers, please wake up your idea. ohh sorry. i forgot you might not even know you're one yourself because you are DELUDED.
all i can say is that life is so much better without that bunch of people and that unnecessary pressure and commitments. and if you think i'm warped and that you're better off, please truly ACCESS your life if you haven't done so before. apart from MINISTRY and your undying commitment to EVERYTHING the church leaders say, WHO ARE YOU TO THE WORLD? don't forget you live in one. without friends, you are one lonely soul outside of church. without money, who gives a shit who you are in church? without time for relationships, you wanna end up 35 and unmarried? without fun and leisure, WHAT'S YOUR LIFE ABOUT? OF COURSE YOU'D SAY THAT YOUR LIFE IS GOD AND CHURCH AND THAT'S WHERE FUN IS. GOOD FOR YOU!!!!
ohhhh please please please please please don't just listen to your LEADERS without thinking. don't forget they're human and humans can be fucked up. so please don't pass any judgements about people and don't just WHOLEHEARTEDLY believe those you bootlick. if you don't know anything, just shut up. if you talk though you don't know shit, you are nothing more than an average joe in the world who gossips.
OH TALKING ABOUT GOSSIPS. in the world, it's called GOSSIP. in the church, it's called, TEACHING YOUR MEMBERS, EDUCATING,BEING WISE ABOUT WHO YOU CHOOSE TO WORK ON. GIVE ME A BREAK PLEASE. what happens with a cell leader and his/her helper in the car or when they're alone? they talk about members? SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME THAT IS NOT GOSSIP. oh shit, why am i so agitated. i shouldn't give a damn about these people. they are the ones DOING WELL, HAPPY, LEADING A PURPOSE-DRIVEN LIFE, DOING GOD'S WILL, LOVING PEOPLE, GETTING BLESSED. i shall just keep my mouth shut eh? ok it stops here. if you hate kevin for this, believe me, i'm grateful. 1. you can't hate people so that proves my point. HA. 2. at least you'll stop showing false concerns because i don't expect you to and i don't want you to. you don't even have time for your life, please don't bother trying to ask how colin is. HAHA. PATHETIC. and for heaven's sake and for the last time i'm gonna emphasize this, please SHUT THE FUCK UP if you don't know anything. thank you

it's her birthday!!

2006-09-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

G is for GLENFIDDICH

2006-09-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH.

MOOOONNNNNEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

I now understand why Changi Airport's arguably e best in e world. my goodnessgraciousme. It feels like HOME. be there for one whole day and you won't mind staying for the night (esp if you have a morning shift e next day). DFS is like home. Glenfiddich our reason for standing and walking around for 7hours straight. $$ the primary attraction/reason. G is for Glenfiddich. 12? 15? 18? 30? 40years? okay i think i'm seriously going a bit cranky from that GRAND TOTAL of 9hours of sleep i caught in 4 days. it's time to catch up with my bed.

tired but happy! =)

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

2006-08-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

29th August

HERE I COME

Glenfiddich

Changi Airport

$10/hr

HERE I COME

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

TWO MORE WEEKS!

2006-08-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! I'm literally counting down to my holidays cuz i can finally get the chance to earn some $$$$$. and finally i can get to wake up AFTER sunrise (for 4 weeks at least =)). Things are moving along and subtly but surely, things are moving positively! I've been really tired of late and i'm not quite sure why (although there never seems a time i'm actually fresh) but the feeling that you're doing something which is making a difference is more than enough for encouragement/motivation. Oh, and something happened today which made me feel really lousy. It wasn't my fault but it just sucks when bad things happen to good people. It's totally undeserving but that's when we gotta trust God even more. I PRAY FOR HIS EYE TO RECOVER!! I guess you won't really know how it feels when someone out of goodwill, kindheartedness, care and sacrifice gets hurt for something he doesn't deserve. and i'm talking about a friend here (in case you guys think i'm talking about e Cross) =). But all the more i'll pray for my brother and God is MORE THAN ENOUGH and GREATER than what happened. Okay i'm getting really random in my words now cuz i'm seriously konking out right now. Gotta go. test tomorrow!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Correction upward is REBELLION

2006-08-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

Numbers 12:1-9While they were at Hazeroth, Miriam and Aaron criticized Moses because he had married a Cushite woman. They said, "Has the Lord spoken only through Moses? Hasn't he spoken through us, too?" But the Lord heard them. Now Moses was more humble than any other person on earth. So immediately the Lord called to Moses, Aaron, and Miriam and said, "Go out to the Tabernacle, all three of you!" And the three of them went out. Then the Lord descended in the pillar of cloud and stood at the entrance of the Tabernacle. "Aaron and Miriam!" he called, and they stepped forward. And the Lord said to them, "Now listen to me! Even with prophets, I the Lord communicate by visions and dreams. But that is not how I communicate with my servant Moses. He is entrusted with my entire house. I speak to him face to face, directly and not in riddles! He sees the Lord as he is. Should you not be afraid to criticize him?" The Lord was furious with them, and he departed.
In this story, Aaron and Miriam decide that they know more than the leader of Israel. When they start seeing themselves wise in their own eyes, the Lord Himself makes a visit to set things straight. He terrifies Aaron and Miriam in their rebellion, leaving them very persuaded that Moses has the hand of God on his life.
Authority is not something to be taken lightly. All authority has been set in position by God. When we step outside of that authority, even in our hearts, we position ourselves to be rebuked by circumstances of disfavor and discomfort. But when we humbly accept the authority under which God places us, praying for them and honoring them, God preserves us no matter what comes. If you ever feel the need to correct those in authority over you, remind yourself to be devoted to what God has entrusted to you.

arggggghh

2006-08-01T09:46:00.000+08:00

Isn't it just strange and disheartening when e good things you offer produce a completely different response? I'm not even talking about reciprocation. I'm talking about perceptions that are WORLDS APART. Reasonings that completely do not make sense to each other. It's disheartening because the help you offered is sincere and most importantly, fruit-bearing but it just doesn't seem that way in the eyes of another, one you really respect and look up to. I hate justification, especially of one-self. But sometimes, you can't just sit there having the other thinking that your motives and attitudes are not right when you sincerely just WANT TO HELP. I mean, isn't easier to say "no" when others request for your help than to say "yes" and commit time and energy into helping that someone(some people)? Why is it that it seems i'm justifying myself when i really hate it and when i KNOW my intentions are sincere? STRANGE but it's a mystery yet to be solved. and this is bugging me bigtime. argggh.

2006-07-26T14:37:00.000+08:00

It doesn’t matter how you are treated, all that matters is how you respond.

2006-07-14T09:42:00.000+08:00

You are destined to win, whether or not you do is up to YOU.

THIS BLEW MY MIND!!

2006-07-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

Okay. there's something i received while praying. They're illustrations actually. Simple but very true.
Illustration 1 : Football match
I was praying upon the verse which says that many are called but FEW are chosen. Isn't it very interesting how 100,000 people can willingly pay 120bucks to watch 22 men fight for a ball? I call these the "church goers". Just that in church, admission is FREE but yet it is still a hassle for some to come. Basically, "church goers" don't accomplish much for God as they're either there just because it is only right or because they're just excited because it's fun (like the 100,000 fans). They come for church week in and week out but they don't necessarily get blessed because the promises of God are conditional. They are fulfilling their duty as a believer. These are those the Bible calls "called". Everyone's called but remember, FEW ARE CHOSEN. So who are the chosen ones? - the 22 players on the pitch. These people train EVERYDAY and are made to perfect their roles of the game, be it in taking a freekick, passing, a corner kick or goalkeeping, they are there EVERYDAY to train and WORK. These are also the ones who ACCEPT the RESPONSIBILITY of fighting for the ball because of sheer PASSION. Notice the link now? But not only that, God NEVER shortchanges us. What we sow, He makes sure we will reap in abundance! These players can earn up to 120,000 pounds/week (almost SGD400000)!! Who do you want to be? a spectator in the crowd or a player who has to train, work, fight for what he's been chosen to do?
Illustration 2 : Sports trials
Okay here we go. The Bible PROMISES us trials in our lives. It promises the LIGHT at e end of every valley. But sadly, many choose to leave, forsake their calling and give up on God's promises. Here's something which might help. I would say EVERY professional athelete will have to go through a SERIES OF TRIALS before being selected by the team/club/country. Perfectly logical isn't it? Notice they don't ever complain about the trials they have to be put through? Why then do Christians, with God on our side complain and even get bitter? It shouldn't be that way. These atheletes are put through trials which they have to pass in order to represent their respective teams. Similarly, God puts us in trials to change, build, strengthen, enlarge and equip us so that we can PASS and get into His team! I laughed when i realized this - no wonder the Bible calls them TRIALS. Let this encourage you - You only go through trials because you have been selected as a POTENTIAL CANDIDATE to represent God! So be happy and of good cheer if you're going through one! You're gonna PASS and step straight into God's team!! The choice is yours - to be the many who are called or the FEW who are chosen. =)

=)

2006-07-04T12:02:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Words of Affirmation:		9
Acts of Service:		5
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		1

haha. never knew receiving gifts were so unimportant to me. haa. now we know what works and what doesn't eh? =)

Take the quiz

2006-07-01T02:41:00.000+08:00

Love Is Not What You Say, Love Is What It Cost You To Say It.

2006-06-26T16:43:00.000+08:00

You Can Never Discover Your New Identity While Gazing Longingly At The Old One.

Galatians 2:20 (NKJV)“I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.”

Knowing that your old self no longer exists is the foundational truth that gives you not only the understanding, but also the confidence that your future is going to be better than your past. Understanding who you are in Christ is the foundation of your Christian life. It helps you better identify which thoughts are God’s and which thoughts are not. Understanding and embracing this new identity protects you from past issues that hinder your progress. Your new identification is the master key to your future success.

the PEAK of the break

2006-06-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

This has been a truly amazing 2 weeks. Emerge more than blew my mind away but things started getting even better after that. In fact, with no exaggeration, i've understood and learnt more in this week or so than in the past 6 months added together! Things have started to move and challenges are coming in real timely. Revelations have been pushing me forward and they never fail to grip my heart and keep me so very excited. The book i'm reading, the emails i've read and the situations i'm in all point to the same thing - LOVE. Okay, this may sound rather strange or incoherent but yes, that's the one thing which has been making me real hungry! Not to GET love but more to GIVE love. I must say that it is something more than an effort, it is a GIFT! The ability to receive love is something many people have but the ability to love others is definitely something you need to pray for! No wonder the Bible says that "Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples." Your competence will blow the minds of the people but your LOVE will touch their hearts. There's no point in achieving results in expense of relationship. I'm extremely delighted things have releaved so that i can now be moving on to where i've been called to! =)

God's TRUTH about life!

2006-05-31T10:29:00.000+08:00

One day I decided to quit. I quit my job, my
relationship, my spirituality, I wanted to quit my
life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with GOD. "GOD", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to
quit?"
His answer surprised me......
"Look around", GOD said. "Do you see the fern and the
bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took
very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them
water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its
brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came
from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on
the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and
plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo
seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo." GOD said.
"In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo
seed. But I would not quit."
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." GOD said.
"Then in the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the
earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and
insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100
feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made
it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not
give any of my creations a challenge it could not
handle." GOD said to me.
"Did you know, that all this time you have been
struggling, you have actually been growing roots?"
"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on
you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." GOD said. "The
bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they
both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", GOD said to me. "You will rise
high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" GOD asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned
"Yes." GOD said, "Give me glory by rising as high as
you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope
these words can help you see that GOD will never give
up on you.

GOD will never give up on you. "Life is not a problem to be solved but a gift to be enjoyed!"

Peace ain't the absence of troubles!

2006-05-17T11:52:00.000+08:00

Many of us pray for the PEACE of God to be with us but do we really understand what God means when He promises us His peace? Peace isn't the absence of troubles and problems, it is the ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF GOD'S PRESENCE. God says that in this world, problems are INEVITABLE but He also promises His peace.
John 16: 33
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
Knowing this, it'll be really funny to hear of people giving up their faith and choosing the "easier" way out. God has given us the assurance that He'll be there to help and deliver us from every problem and that He's always near in every circumstance by the promises He gave in His Word. EVERY single problem we face isn't anything new for God. In fact, He has given us the promises found in the Bible for us to cling onto so that we will emerge STRONGER after coming out of whatever situations we may be in. Backsliding will be a joke to God because it seems rather absurd for a man to turn away from a God who is FAITHFUL to every promise He has given us. Never forget that we're called to walk by FAITH and not by sight. Our circumstances, situations, problems, frustrations, disappointments either pull us down or take us up higher. The choice is ours. God has given MORE than what we could ask for and the decision lies in us whether to take them or not. We have His peace, we have His presence, we have the ALMIGHTY with us!

His promises await!

2006-05-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

"So don't get tired of doing what is good. Don't get discouraged and give up, for we will reap a harvest of blessing at the appropriate time." An all familiar verse but something we should all cling on to. Take a closer look at this verse. All it requires you to do is to 1) BELIEVE in it, and, 2) ACT on it - KEEP DOING GOOD. That's all it requires for a person to reap what God has installed for him/her. Notice that the verse reminded us that we WILL reap, but only at the APPROPRIATE time. Having understood this, wouldn't it be foolish to give up and back out? Wouldn't that be just nothing more than impatience? 2 simple things God asked for from us when He gave us this promise. BELIEVE + ACT. Sometimes we don't need a miracle, we just need to renew our minds! The Bible says that even when we are faithless, God is ALWAYS faithful. ALWAYS. Having known that, be encouraged, keep on keeping on and stand, knowing that God is true to His Word and His blessings await!

Favour!

2006-05-02T16:32:00.000+08:00

Interestingly, favour's a word we so often use but yet many of us don't really know what we mean when we use it. As such, we don't fully understand what God means when He promises us His favour and that we WILL have the favour of men. Favour isn't "chance", "luck" or "good fortune". Favour is the invisible desire someone has to help you succeed. We need others to take us to places we haven't been and we all know that the friends we have in our lives either take us closer to or further away from God's will for our lives. We must seek to please those whom God has placed over our lives. We must understand that those God has placed over our lives are PHYSICAL REPRESENTATIVES of Jesus in our lives. Pleasing, serving and fighting for them IS pleasing, serving and fighting for Jesus.

Doing the same thing, expecting a different result is INSANITY

2006-04-03T01:20:00.000+08:00

That's right. I feel a lot towards that statement i just made in the title. Yes it's true that in Christ, we will succeed. It's definitely true that in Christ, every failure can be a stepping stone to a bigger success. But i know that a lot of life is decided by the choices and actions we make. Praying and "trusting" God for something to happen is good. Having faith that God will make a way is right. But didn't the Bible say that faith without WORKS is DEAD? Trusting praying and having faith but yet still make no change in choices and actions is going to land you back in the same rut you thought you've climbed out of. A lot of life will be shaped by the SMALLEST and seemingly least significant decisions and actions we make. One thing i desire is for God to make me BIGGER. Isn't that what being Christ-like is all about? It was never meant for us to reach out and evangelize to our friends/family by inviting them to church. That isn't wrong, but that is the LOWEST form of evangelism. Evangelism should take place simply by your very presence. Jesus called us to be the LIGHT of the world. When we lift up the name of Jesus in our lives, we will draw ALL men unto us. No one can resist the presence of Jesus and we are CALLED to carry that with us. Little choices, small actions, taking a little extra mile will go a long, LONG way in making a difference in your and the lives of those around you. Remember, doing the same thing and expecting a different result is complete INSANITY.

WOW

2006-03-07T17:51:00.000+08:00

Failures Focus On The Pain Of Their Present While Winners Focus On The Dream Of Their Future.

2 Corinthians 4:18 (NKJV)“While we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.”

We’ve got to stop panicking! We either believe the promises of God…or we don’t! Being full of care, anxiety, and fear indicates that we are not convinced that what God said is true. How do we become convinced? Romans 10:17 says, “…faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God.”To find a place of peace and overcome the worries in life, we must realize that everything will work according to what we believe on the inside. Unless we are meditating on God’s Word, the outcome won’t be pretty. Prayer will not override our lack of meditation on God’s Word. We must inject God’s Word into our spirits before we can walk in the peace that passes all understanding.

never meant to be

2006-03-04T03:14:00.000+08:00

Took a stroll around the neighbourhood before settling down at the playground to pluck some tunes. Anything can change your mood at any given time. Your mood is determined by what your focus. Simple but true. Notice that when your mood is down, it's most often because your focus is on the negative. It's really so amazing how your mood can change without much effort. Something small just happens. Words you don't wanna hear are spoken. Things go wrong. You're not careful. You're not realizing and before you know it, you've let that little "thing" change your entire being and day. No wonder the Bible says "Guard your HEART with all diligence for out of it springs the issues of life". It's really no wonder that the Word also says that "as a man THINKS, so is he". No wonder. Life was never meant to be easy, which is what really makes it fun. A great sense of satisfaction when you look back on the valley you've just walked through and standing there in the light you go, "phew, Thank you LORD for seeing me through". Awesome. Simply awesome. Live on hope. Believe and it will happen. Okay pardon me if you think my words are jumbled all over the place, it's 330am and i'm pretty sure i'm already half asleep. Hope is in Him, choose wisely. =)

Things Of God

2006-03-01T10:32:00.000+08:00

1st of March. It was like just moments ago when we were counting down to the new year and making our resolutions when now, we're already a sixth into it. well well, things have been going pretty well, life has moved on, faith has been ignited, hope clinged on and greater things are coming!
What should be one's core focus as a believer?
To please heaven.
The Bible stated "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."
Here's e NLT version -->"and he will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern.". Let's look into the part which says "make the Kingdom of God your PRIMARY CONCERN". We've heard this many times before and somehow, subconciously, we tend to think that we ARE actually putting the things of God first in our lives. Okay, let's try this.
Try to recall what you've been praying for in the last week. Did you start off by praying for your desires? Or maybe for the upcoming exams? Or maybe for God to move in certain areas of your life or for Him to make some supernatural changes in your life?
Now, these things are NOT wrong. The Bible did state that as we delight ourselves in the LORD, He will grant us the desires of our hearts. But let's come back to the point - Seek FIRST the Kingdom of God. The priority of our prayers shouldn't be focused on ourselves and the things we want but instead, be focused on the things of God and on what Christ has done when He shed His blood, took the stripes and willingly hung on the cross. What would please God is when a person puts aside what matters to him and redirects his focus on what matters to God. It doesn't matter if we're not at our best, if we still have weaknesses to fight, if we still have areas to change, or even if we feel we're not ready. We're not to wait for the right or perfect time. Ecclesiastes 11: 4 says it like this : "If you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done."
The truth is that as long as you place the Kingdom of God as your PRIMARY CONCERN, everything you will ever need in your life will be given to you. So take the smart choice. You want everything to work well and live a good life worthy of His call? Simple - Seek FIRST the Kingdom of God!

There is no chance i won't get it, i will get it!

2006-02-27T11:09:00.000+08:00

Life is a not a race to be won, but a journey to be ENJOYED. There are seasons in life.
Ec 3: 1
There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.
Great things await everyone. There's only one problem- People don't tend to wait. Or should i say, people DON'T like waiting. There is a season for everything. A season for sowing, a season for reaping, a season of preparation and a season of glory. Just as God promises that He has good plans for us to give us a future and a hope, He also expects something from us. Remember that Moses had to wait 25 years even when he received His part of the promise from God at the age of 75 for his child, isaac! From that story we can learn that Moses not only had FAITH, he had the PATIENCE. Many of us focus on faith and forget the other part of the requirement. God never moves at our timings, He moves by His seasons. If a promise or a dream from God has been planted in your heart, cling on with all you have to God - that's the best any man can do. Don't lose hope, don't lose heart, don't give up.
Gal 6: 9
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.
Never leave out the part of the verse which says, IN DUE SEASON. Have faith, have patience, it will happen.
Now you know this, but it doesn't stop the frustration, pain, disturbing thoughts, negative feelings? Remember, life is not a race to be won, but a journey to be ENJOYED. Being happy is a choice. Know that whatever we may be going through, God is still the LORD of everything. If you are going through a season which requires patience, be sure to know that God is preparing you for GREATER THINGS to come. As long as you know that, faith, hope and happiness will follow.
As Christians, we are to live a life of the impossbile. It isn't just enough to do the ordinary or even great things, we are to be doing EXTRAORDINARY and IMPOSSIBLE things simply because we have God. The worst tragedy are Christians who never lived. We aren't called to ordinary, average or mediocrity. Believe and the impossible will be possible!
Mk 9: 23
"What do you mean, 'If I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes."

say YES and AMEN

2006-02-22T07:04:00.000+08:00

While i tossed and turned in bed for a while after Arsenal's fantabulous victory against Real Madrid, something was stirring up on the inside of me which kept me awake, wide awake. After realizing that i only had an hour or so to sleep before i had to finally get up for school, i figured i'll rather spend that time more wisely. Since i couldn't sleep, i got out of bed and picked up the guitar and started praying just before dawn. It was an AWESOME time. A time i'll hang on to and one which will never leave my mind. Received something in that wonderful process- "who am i to say no?".
Who am i to say no to God's promises?
Who am i to say no to being the head and not the tail?
Who am i to say no that ALL things work together for good to those who love Him?
Who am i to say no to every promise He has made in His Word?
Many times, we find it hard to accept God's promises in times of crisis or failure and in the process, start to lose sight of our dream when faith leaks and hope differed. Verses like the ones above stated seem like a far cry from your current situation and may even seem like an impossibilty. EXACTLY. It was never meant to be possible! Another thing i've caught - A dream is NOT a dream if you know how to go about achieving it. A dream is only a dream if you have NO IDEA at all how to go about getting it and most important of all, if God is the LORD of it. If anything you want or desire seems POSSIBLE in your mind, you might want to consider dreaming BIGGER. Personally, i find the hardest and best thing a man can do is to live out a dream. Because while on the journey, it will seem that everything is coming against you and there'll be 2 possible outcomes.
1. It will cost you to lose sight of your dream and you might just say to yourself, "nah, it's too hard, what's e point of trying so hard anyway?"
2. It will lead you to lean onto God and trust Him even more, claim and confess his promises and in the process, build FAITH.
So if you're reading this and you're in a situation where you don't know whether to pursue your dreams or to just let it all go, be sure that WITH God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! What the devil meant for evil, God can turn it around for your GOOD. Remember, all He ever asks is for you to have FAITH.
Mt 17:20
"You didn't have enough faith," Jesus told them. "I assure you, even if you had faith as small as a mustard seed you could say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it would move. Nothing would be impossible."

what's up tomorrow?

2006-02-21T11:01:00.000+08:00

The life i live today is the result of the thoughts i had yesterday.
The life i'm about to experience tomorrow is the DIRECT RESULT of the thoughts i have TODAY!
It doesn't matter how discouraging the situation seems, what matters at the end of the day is the Word of God. What you believe in is what you're gonna get. The thoughts you choose to let roam in your mind is gonna be the life you live not very long from now. I've realized that the mark of maturity is when you hold on and believe in the Word of God even when everything else seems to be against you. Not an easy feat and that's the very reason why we're called to live by FAITH. If there are dreams you are living for, never give up! I choose to live on the Word and it says "DO NOT grow weary while doing good for in DUE SEASON, you shall reap if you DO NOT lose heart". The bible clearly states that what you want and desire will come at the appropriate time, God's time. All that God asks is that you keep doing what's right and that you never lose hope but instead, live by faith. Remember that His thoughts and ways are HIGHER than ours. Don't try to outsmart God, don't try to want things your way, instead trust in His Word!
Something to think about: Every thought that comes to your mind in contrary to God's Word is NOT your thought. Simply because Jesus said that we are RIGHTEOUS and the thoughts of the RIGHTEOUS are right. We're RIGHTEOUS in the eyes of Christ because of what He's done. A smart thing to do will be to reject those thoughts because if they're not from you, guess who they're from? =)

GREATER things are coming!

2006-02-17T14:39:00.000+08:00

Indeed as e title suggests, GREATER things await! Pulled out of 2005, PUSHED into 2006. No eye has seen, no ear heard, no mind perceived what the LORD has installed for those who love Him! Where i'm standing, what i'm facing, what i've done, how i feel is no longer relevant. Yes they matter, yes they are facts. But i choose to stand on God's TRUTH. That as we delight ourselves in Him, He'll grant us the desires of our heart. That ALL things will work together for GOOD to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Standing by the things He's said, standing by the promises He's made. Falling back on everything He's done, falling back on EVERLASTING arms. Hey, i don't know what tomorrow will be like, but i sure know that come what may, I'm bashing through it because I'm held in His hands. I'm contented simply by the fact that He's with me and that He loves me. 2006 will be the greatest year yet. Things will start to happen, things will start to change. Miracles await! Come what may, God loves me and He will never let me go, period. MIRACLES AWAIT! =)

weeeeeeeeeEEEE!

2006-02-16T01:30:00.000+08:00

wooohhhoooooo.
Good test. Good day in school. Good day after school. Good day at home. 145am and it's still a GOOD DAY(morning).
Figured something quite cool and it'll probably be taking a bit of my time from now on. Picked up guitar a couple of months back and managed to get a mike out of some unforeseen circumstance, soooooooooo...i plugged e mike in, started strumming and started what i call "singing" and hey, it was FUN! anyways, something learnt today which is essential and useful but of course, not fogetting the very fact that it is effort and willingness from our part.
Faithfulness - God talks about it throughout His Word and one which i can remember cuz it hit me hard is that "he who is faithful over the little, will be made faithful over MUCH".
FAITHFULNESS : Faithful when it's inconvenient.
Faithful when no one's watching
Faithful when it is dangerous to be faithful.
Faithful when everything is going well.
IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT check list.
Constantly check your life in these 4 areas of faithfulness and ensure that it is kept as close as possible to what God has intended and be ready for the "MUCH" to come!
There's always so much to conquer in life, so many revelations you wanna walk in, so many areas that need change, but hey, it's gonna be all worthwhile ain't it?
Take it slow, take it easy(now, that doesn't mean slack), take it WITH God. Doesn't matter how long it takes, doesn't matter how fast you're going/growing/changing/moving, what matters is that you ARE going/growing/changing/moving. Do what you humanly can, leave the rest to none other than Him. Walk on, walk on STRONG!

sssstttttiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiinnnnnngggggg

2006-02-15T12:27:00.000+08:00

Thoughts unknown.
Feelings inexpressible.
Neither wrong nor right.
Uneasiness creeps in.
Is this what i think it really is?
From above or from me?
I'm pretty sure i'm not sure.
Guess what? Back to the principle - What to do when you don't know what to do?
P R A Y

ain't giving up

2006-02-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

Ever tried to help someone dear to you?
Ever tried so hard because that someone's your kin?
Ever tried so hard but failed?
Ever seen someone close to you falling prey to the very thing he/she's been trying to overcome?
Ever almost thought of giving up?

I've learnt and acknowledged the fact that not every thing happens HOW you want it to and WHEN you want it to. We've seen victories, we've seen defeats. One thing i know for sure, that delay is never denial. And what's the best thing to do when you really don't know what to do? --> P - R - A - Y
Do what your God-given body, mind, talents, abilities allow you to. Send the rest to heaven through your prayers. Not fighting against flesh and blood here remember? There's more to it than that. Don't try to fight what you're not called to fight. "kiang jiu hou, mai kay kiang" Live on hope, live strong, it'll happen when you least expect it to. Be prepared =)

You doin' it right?

2006-02-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

Quit trying to apply the Word into your life and start applying your life to the Word. uhhhh huhh. Sounds like the same thing? Sure ain't the same thing. I'll attempt an example - Many of us will try to apply a certain verse or a quote from the Bible to suit our current situations/circumstances, now that's applying "the Word" into your life. What we're supposed to do is that we ought to CONFORM to the Word, to be shaped, moulded and driven by its principles.
As long as that's the only constancy in our lives, we'll start to experience what Jesus said : "I want you to experience in this life, every treasure and promise that is hidden in My Word"

Come What May

2006-02-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

The Excellent Focus On What They're Going "To" While The Average Complain About What They're Going "Through".

"Hebrews 12:2 (NKJV)... who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Jesus, our greatest example, demonstrates the power of focus. James 1:2 tells us that life is going to bring many storms and tests our way. Only those who focus on the promises of God will survive. Not understanding your purpose will cause any obstacle to appear insurmountable. It is important to ask ourselves, "Where am I headed in life? What do I want to accomplish, possess, and become?" Those who have no clear purpose, have no internal fortitude to press beyond their current circumstances.We must always remember - our lives move in the direction of our focus. Although what we are going through may seem too difficult to overcome, it is imperative that we focus on the victory that awaits us. Just as an athlete focuses on running the race to win the prize, so we must have a clear distinct image of the victory rather than the storm. As we focus on what we are going to, Heaven will give us the strength to make it through.

fehh-mee-lee

2006-02-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

In This Journey

2006-02-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

There's so much that will come our way in life. There's so much we have to deal with right now. Let what's over be over. 2005 might not have been the best of years but hey, it's 2006 i'm in. If only given a single choice, i'll choose to pin my hopes on Someone who's worthy and able to make what's not right, right. The mistakes,let-downs, disappointments, hurts, frustrations, bitterness and weaknesses of yesterday remains as that. Today's a brand new day so you might as well try taking a shot at living it better. One thing i know, the decisions i make today will shape my tomorrow. One of the wisest things one can do is to think through the convictions he/she wants to have and be sure to live by them. Pinning my hopes on Him. Keeping my faith in Him. I've got one life, I've chosen to give it all i've got to live it with God!